Today I "Saw" My "Baby"

September 4, 2012

Okay, fine, I saw half of it.  Or them.  Since this truly will be our last IUI, we have decided to go all out.  The full blown monitoring (where they go inside and measure egg growth), HCG trigger shot, and all.

Did I mention that I HATE the monitoring?  It's so dang uncomfortable.  I'm a more private person but I'm so over that everyone sees me down south at this point; it's uncomfortable because it hurts.

However, although this was the 2nd time, I had the same weird sensation I did the first.  I got to actually see the tiny eggs that are growing inside me.  There is a big on measuring at 1.8 and 2 smaller at 1.5.  It is so strange that one of those, after making friends with Dar's sperm, could be my BABY.  I know it's a long shot, but there is hope in the fact that this is the last IUI no matter what.

We had the privilege of actually scheduling the IUI (and bonus it's on Saturday so I don't have to miss school) and almost guaranteed that we are going in at the right time because of the shot (last time we did the shot we had the freakishly low sperm count of just 1 million). 

At this point, I'm going to pack away the ovulation predictor kits, stop temping, give myself the injection and relax.  I keep reminding myself it's in God's hands.  As a Christian I deeply know that He has the best for us and future baby and that I have to trust that which is sooo hard.  At this point, I'm going to do my part and then "Be still."

1 comment:

  1. Good luck and lots of baby dust! I'll say a prayer for you :)


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