Got some really bad news recently from Darren's school bill that could change the course of IVF. We should have answers from them soon. Back to the dreaded land of the waiting.
I feel like so much of this journey has been WAITING. Waiting to see if I ovulate. Waiting to see if my progesterone is normal. The @$@#%@%@@ 2 Week wait. And now the IVF timing wait.
I have grown to hate the land of waiting because here the mind can take over. Fears become nightmares.
My pastor once said "Worrying is planning negatively for the future." It's true in theory, hard to actually put in practice. Guess God wants to teach me how to control my thoughts (this could be useful during my eventual IVF 2ww).
I did buy birth control today. It was so incredibly strange to hear the pharmacist say "use a backup plan for 7-12 days so you don't get pregnant." WOW. I have to go on BCP anyway before IVF so I might at well start it in case we decide to move forward this month.
This song couldn't be any more applicable to me right now. Here's the lyrics, youtube link is at bottom if you want to hear the song.
I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait
And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait
I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it's not easy no, but faithfully I will wait
Yes, I will wait
And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait
I will move ahead bold and confident
I'll be taking every step in obedience, yeah
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
And I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You Lord
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait
And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait
I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it's not easy no, but faithfully I will wait
Yes, I will wait
And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait
I will move ahead bold and confident
I'll be taking every step in obedience, yeah
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
And I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You Lord
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I love that song as well! I hope everything works out and you can go forward with IVF this cycle.
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